Me: Is this going to be a more productive part of the separation than the last 6 horrifying months? For you I mean?
Her: the past 6 months I've been trying to get my head straight and move on. I wasn't working on the relationship, or saving anything. You knew that clearly and I know you were trying to save it, but I wasn't, now I want to believe you, but you need to show me that i can.
Her: I am considering that this might not be over and that you deserve a chance to prove that you mean it
Me: THAT IS BIG!
Her: I am however with someone else and i will need to sort that out, but that's not your issue.
Me: It effects what you decide no matter how I succeed at being financially stable and emotionally less needy.
Me: It is the scary part to me.
Her: It shouldn't be because it only impedes your success and you don't have control over that, other than succeed yourself
Me: Quoted from you " I am considering that this might not be over and that you deserve a chance to prove that you mean it" whether I do or not you may end up with someone else and as you say "you don't have control over that".
Me: that is the paradox that scares me.
Her: you can either be scared and not do anything, or go forward and trust me
Me: lol
Me: I am going forward because I have no choice. It is more like I need to pray I get my way than trust you. It isn't about your trustworthiness it is about the strength and value of your bond with me vs. your bond with him.
Me: I know how strong and important the bond is between you and me but I know nothing of your bond with him except that you are back with him after more than 5 years of being with me. so I am concerned.
