Que Sera, Sera - Whatever Will Be, Will Be

[lemonsnap]

I'm a bit anxious thinking about our MC appointment tonight, given that our Wednesday session was such a bust (when I found out that H has NO hope for our M and only wants to be friends. He does NOT want to work on our R as a married couple.)

Our MC suggested that we do some sessions to just try to clear the air between us and improve our communication while helping each other understand how we got to this stage.

I think it has the potential of helping us, whether we ever reconcile as husband and wife, or just maintain our friendship.

I guess I'm just nervous about it because I get emotional and it's stressful. I should consider it cathartic stress - getting things off my chest and hopefully gaining some understanding about me and H.

I already know what the worst case scenarios are:
H stops participating in MC sessions
H files for divorce
H moves back to his country

My goals for tonight are to:
1) Listen
2) Listen
3) Listen
4) Be supportive of H
5) Try to understand his point of view
6) Try to control my emotions by breathing deeply and drinking water when needed.
7) Say the things I need to say in a calm and respectful manner

Whew.