I'm sorry you're feeling blah right now. I know it comes and goes but know that we all think you're doing a great job with going dark and standing firm.
I would second SO2's observation about protecting yourself legally from the crap W could pull. You're not just doing it for yourself, you're doing it for your children's future too. And if waiting is the best option then by all means wait. I don't think anyone would see that as being greedy, just looking out for the best interest of your family, your new family.
If you love somebody, set them free. http://tinyurl.com/2empx2g
