Standing on the Edge

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I have felt so much anger towards my W this last year. I have moments of understanding about how she feels, but I know how much she has contributed to this. To a large degree this is a self inflicted wound.

But she will never fully understand it from this perspective.

For her, she does not love me. She never loved me.

I know this is selective memory at work.

In many ways, I am lucky. She feels guilty about what she is doing and she did not sneak around on me. I imagine she will tell me when she meets someone new. I don't see her having great opportunities to find Prince Charming however.

She is going to want/need a very long, seductive courtship period, perhaps 6-8mos. That is, AFTER she is married.

She has to find someone who can support her, as she does not want to work anymore.

She needs someone who will put up with CRAZY whenever she tries to get her needs met or is unhappy.

Someone who wants to deal with our D. ( This is where I as the only DAD am not going to be ok with another man interjecting himself in the r with my D!!!!!)

She has gained 40+ lbs since marriage and has not been dressing very nicely.

She can't budget $$$, spends it as soon as it is available.

Need I go on ?

Sure, she has a great personality when it comes to friendship, but how long will that last ?

She has no good example of a LTR.

Oh well... just blowing steam.