Thank you DB Buddies. But I made a decision. I moved out. Last night was my last night in our marital home. And oddly enough, these last two nights were probably the best he and I have had since this all started. We were comfortable. There was affection from both sides and not forced. We talked a lot about absolutely nothing, our opinions about shows we watch, his last minute decision to got to college in a different town than home, etc. We played with our son....it was wonderful. He did try to stop me from moving. But these last two days, he mentioned it once and it was to ask if I was sure. I said I was. At this point, I do NOT want my marriage to end. I love him deeply. He's the father of my child and I still believe he is my soul mate. But this is how I see it: I have moved out. He has moved back into the house, by himself, with our dog. One of two things will happen, probably not over night, but eventually: He will love his life without us. (Me and S) or He will hate it. Either way, I'll have an answer. So Jack, am I ready for the possible end? I don't think I will ever be, but that's not a good reason to live my life in limbo for as long as possible.
