Frank, I'm glad you had such a great trip with your kids. They will remember it for a long time and it's good that you are making new memories with them.
It's also good that you reassure your children that you would never keep them from their mother. You may have to say that over and over since you are dealing with her instability. She is incapable of seeing how her behavior affects her children. Maybe someday she will, but not now. Keep on the straight path. You will be fine.
And, yes, your children do love you.
Welcome back!
Spitty
Always do right. This will gratify some people, and astonish the rest. Mark Twain