TGIF!!!!
I hope everyone has a nice weekend. I will attend DD's game tonight. Wow, just 3 more and it will be the last time I see her cheer and dance. Where have the years gone? She's still my baby, she shouldn't be gradauating from high school in 3 months!

Tomorrow I have a lunch date with a wonderful friend. This friend happens to be married to H's cousin. We only met because of our H's, but formed a very close bond. Believe me, for the past two years she has been closer to me than she has my H.

Last night a friend called me and invited me to dinner, but I had already started dinner for the girls. Again this is someone I only know because of H. Her H and my H are friends and business associates. We did not meet until after our separation. All she knew about me was what H had told her and her H. For a long time she and her H did not know that he left me for another woman. He told them he was unhappy. Her H even point blank asked my H if there was someone else and he said no. Eventually he brought OW around them. Once the the friend met me and found out the whole truth she told my H to never bring OW to their house again. It's so nice that she stood up for my marriage. Her H has even told my H he needs to get off of his high horse and quit stringing me along. My H may have friends, but it doesn't mean they respect him.

You all are right about the OW. I should not pity her. She made her choices. She decided to ruin not only her family, but had no regard for mine. I truly however believe that H does not have feelings for her anymore. I believe it was a fling that suited his needs at the time. She filled H's emotional needs at the time, but now he only feels gulit towards her.

The thing is H doesn't want to fire her because she has "no one" to help her financially with her oldest DD who is in college. It's easy to see that he measures everthing financially, money comes first. He did not care about our daughters' or my emotional needs. He is the only family we have nearby. He always made sure that they had the money they needed to buy material things so that fulfilled his fatherly role. Don't get me wrong, I am thankful that he has provided financially for the girls, but the thing is, the girls needed their father far more than the latest designer purses or clothing.

I'm just venting...thanks for letting me.




Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are.
-- Bernice Johnson Reagon