met h at school. he seemed psyched to see me. we went to a cool place for drinks and dinner. all kinds of good stuff. towards the end of dinner I asked if he had spoken with a former coworker --someone whose wife just had a baby...guy would have returned to work this week. h hesistated while answering, looked quizzical, wondered aloud if he had spoken with him.
It felt weird to me.
on the way out of the restaurant I said "ya know, that felt really uncomfortable to me. as though you were tying to remember if you had spoken with "someone" or the guy himself." he said "ah." getting the tacit implication that something about the exchange made me wonder if he had spoken with ow.
He asked (good stuff) if there was anything about the exchange he could have done differently. I said "no. I wasn't blaming you for my uncomfortableness. I was just telling you how I feel."
No matter. He's wounded and not talking to me right now.
When we got home I said "do you want to tell me why you're mad?" he said (mad as heck) "who said I'm mad?" I said "sorry, I didn't mean to tell you how you're feeling. do you want to tell me what you're thinking." he said "you didn't? well. no".
okey-dokey.
I'm royally sick of this.
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
