It's Complicated! Part 4

[glamgirl]

Thanks everyone. H asked me to pick up more meds for him, I didn't realize that he was out and then when he told me he hadn't taken them for 3 days, then his so called alien attack made sense to me.

I am sure it all came back to him in some sort of depressed way. SC I love the alien analogy. That was exactly how it felt. Thinking back at times he even seemed comical, like h are you serious.

Next time, if there is a next, what makes me think there won't be, I am just going to smile and nod. Not even get into anything, now that would be a 180 for me. Even though I think I handled myself well, when he is like that I think I should have just listened offered no comments and said see you tomorrow h.

It's so hard though when you see the perspective off base or that you have worked so hard to repair the past damage and then what we are at square 1 again.

My s7 said this evening why doesn't dad sleep here mom? I want him to sleep here! I feel bad for my kids, they see this and it breaks my heart. I hope they feel it's nothing they have done. When the kids ask my h, he doesn't really give them an answer.

I talked to h early in the morning. He called to say goodmorning. He said he wasn't feeling well, not sure what that meant. He also said he wasn't sure how much time he could spend with us this weekend. I suggested he work on friday evening and the come over afternoon on Saturday. H was hesitant and said he might need to work all day on Saturday. I just said h you decide. He said he would come over on Friday evening.

I called him Thur evening to update him on something and no answer, nor did he call back. I just want this all to end. I don't like living alone, now that s20 has moved out.

The hard part for me is if h has so much pent up anger towards me, how can he find his way back home? What is going to make a difference?