Just keep swimming...PH #4

[pearlharbr]

Thanks everyone. I think I'm over the shock now.

Tawnya, SF, and Kassie - I will definitely take time before responding. No worries about a hasty reply from me!

JD - I'm not excited. That's really not the word I would use. My initial reaction was anger. Lots of anger. How dare he think he can come back into my life after what he's put me through. Doesn't sound like someone who wants him back, does it? Right now I'm 99.9% sure I want him to take a hike and get on with my life. My only hesitation is that I did come here for a reason. Three months ago all I wanted was for us to try and see if we could address the issues and build a better, stronger R. Am I now a typical WAS if I'm the one not willing to at least make an effort?

My goal in coming here was to say that I tried everything I could to save the R so either we could work through it or I could walk away with my head held high. I've learned a lot about myself and a lot about our R. The one thing that has struck the most is how often I read how much people miss their best friend. The thing is, we were never best friends. When I realized that it made me really, deeply sad. I deserve that. I don't think I can have that with him.

Tawnya, this must be a night for tears!