I think I have come to the same conclusion. It doesn't matter what I do or don't do. I don't know if she will ever regret it someday. She is not the type regret things. We'll have to see on that one.
I was just not able to keep it together through this process. And that is my fault. I didn't handle any of it well. I'm not completely sure it would have made a difference had I handled it well anyways. She is so infatuated with OM. I've never seen anything like it.
So what do I do now? I guess I go dark in Florida for 3 months and pray like crazy. Even if she does divorce me. Its never over til its over. She could always change her mind someday. We share 2 kids. There will be opportunities to redeem myself in the future.
I will definitely miss her. Not the person she has become, but the old person she was. I know this much. It will be a very long time before I can trust again. This can really scar a person.
Kevin
Me 36, W 37 M: 08/02/97 D13, D9 1st Bomb 02/08 Reconciled 04/08 2nd Bomb: 09/08 W filed for D 02/04/09 Separated 03/09 D dismissed 06/09/09 Still separated...
