Is the answer blowing in the wind?

[Trixi]

Last night H came over and we did fondue. It was a-ma-zing! if I do say so myself. lol

convo "highlights"

-he's afraid that if we get back together he might cheat down the road. to which I said "So, this is your character deficit; not mine." and he readily agreed; he just doesn't "know" if he can commit...doesn't know what his problem is.

-he said that when we first got married he thought he had it made and was happy happy. Then I disappeared. (ARGH!!!!!!!!!) I calmly (but firmly) said "I. Was. SICK!" He says "I know how hard it can be to pull yourself out of depression...." (DOUBLE ARGH!!!) I said "This was not "just" a depression. I could NOT "will" myself to be better. When will you get it?????" And then I had a stroke of genius. I said "I want you to grow some boobies. Just "will it" to happen." He had to laugh and said "Your analogies are so over the top." UGH!! To which I said "That is the thing- it actually is NOT over the top. I did NOT have the hormones." He actually stopped and became thoughtful; we'll see if it actually changes his perception.

-He's afraid if we live together we won't do fun stuff.
blah blah blah :rolls eyes:

We "argued" a bit about whose family is more annoying.

Just one more week until the counselor comes back. Maybe she will be able to help him work thru his issues regarding committing.
He is still looking for me to be patient and give him time to work thru all this.