You are very welcome. I know we have some mutual friends on the board, glad I finally got to "speak" with you myself.

Yep, I am a willing spirit and I truly hope a "teachable" one.

I have a friend whose husband is extremely religious. And when I get together with them, he often shares his deep beliefs. He can talk about them for hours. Many times I have listened with half an ear - too mired in my own muck and self pity to pay it much mind.

But the other week we were talking. And he was telling me about how God was helping him through this difficult time (his son has gotten involved with drugs). I asked him how he knew that God was helping him and that he wasnt helping himself.

He said, I gave it over to Him. I told Him that I trust Him and follow Him and that I know that He would allow to happen what should and whatever that was, I would accept.

A few days later, his son was arrested. Soon after, I went to visit my friend. Her h said to me, you see B, He helped. I said, but your s got arrested. He said, yes, and now my s realizes he has a problem. And today he came to me and said, Dad, I need some help.

To say it gave me pause is an understatement.

I hope and pray that I can find my way to Him.