I feel like my H found a new way to hurt me while I am being dark. He has been taking off his ring, putting it on, taking it off.etc.
Today seeing it off again this week, and he hasn't tried to call - I began to feel like i did when he was drinking or threatening to leave. A new way to hurt, a new way to communicate his pain, a new way to manipulate. Whatever....
I was upset and got control over myself when I saw his hand. I talked to someone from the church he is converting to and she is so sympathetic to my side. She thinks he is so confused and twisted by the church which surprised me. But it also reminded me that we cannot control others. She suggested I take my ring off and see his reaction but I told her that I don't want to do things for a reaction like that - I find his actions disrespectful of me and our M. Then that thought takes me to our whole R and how he has disrespected me and the M all along. Not that he shows himself much respect either.
Feeling down tonight, not sure what to do, I chimed in with JD and SO2, when they say the same thing. We are all drifting to... who knows where.
