talked to h a bunch of times today...got quite a few emails, too. He proposed a plan for us tonight...gonna meet me for drinks after he studies at school and I go to a meeting. Cool.
I need to remember to not overwhelm him with my drive towards action...it's good stuff when we both make plans and decisions.
Other very important thing...h is going out on a limb with me, too...he's vulnerable, too. It's not just me (I'll bet) that's scared...MY DOUBTS and FEARS...while I know that they are focused on me and my insecurities DON'T feel that way to him...to him, it feels like judgement sometimes...I need to remember NOT to trounce on him...to keep him safe, too. That may mean holding onto myself thru some scary times. He's done a great job reassuring me even without me asking...let me take that to heart and quiet some of the fears in my head.
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
