Pearl alerted us you could use some support. My H and I are separated for 7 mo now. Just married 2.5 years. He has other problems, I didn't mention it in my sitch, he also suffers from PTSD. H is now getting help. You can read up on it almost anywhere. IC for him and MC for both will help you learn how to deal with it.
Like anything else, M problems are tough on both. Reading through your posts I empathize with the non stop thinking and sleeplessness. Same advice as others - talk to your MD about sleep aid. The thinking spin is your way of trying to "fix" it. You can't fix a M. It has to be a do-over so to speak. My philos about M breakdown is that if something is working it doesn't break. If it isn't working then at some point it breaks. Doesn't mean it has to stay broken, just repaired. Repairing is rebuilding it- making changes that are needed to sustain the R between you both. I think some spouses are adamant about not working on R because they don't have a clue what to do so they do nothing for awhile. Then they begin to miss the R and want to try again.
Keep working with the C, read a lot, keep yourself busy and get some sleep girl and don't forget to eat once a day.
