Thanks so much for staying in touch and for your support.
I'm concerned about what you said here:
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Just feeling angry and sad. Went for a 2 mile walk last night on the beach walk. Thought it would clear my head but all I could do is think about where my life went. The only joy I have is with my girls the rest is crap. I go to the gym, yoga, read, try and get out and all I feel is empty.
These feelings come and go with me too. But I've tried the "thank you" approach lately and it's really working. Before I go to sleep I say thank you for.......and list as many things as I can - simple things like: My warm bed, the rain we had today, my great students, no traffic on the way home, my dogs, that great tasting orange juice I just bought, the book I'm reading, my awesome friends......sometimes I fall asleep before I've finished.
Start thinking more about where your life is going rather than where it went. Maybe your H will want to rejoin you someday.
Me 56 H 47 Married 21 years No children Bomb & moved out 4/07 "My feelings have changed" & "I want to live by myself". Ow Bomb 8/07 H filed 6/08 D final 2/05/10
