I fear my h will never realize what he has done because I can't imagine him seeking any help. He's pretty stubborn.
I also don't expect him to contact me and I have not contacted him since we finalized the separation agreement and don't plan to in the future. I am just trying to find peace with what has happened. I am not sure I will ever find a positive in it however, as I feel we had a very good marriage and miss him (the old him) very much.
I have read a lot of stuff on this site as well as 40/60 and it does help me realize that this is about him and not me but sometimes I start to doubt myself and wonder if I could have done something differently. I am a mostly logical person as opposed to emotional and this bizarre, crazy, contradictory situation has really thrown me for a loop. If someone told me a similar story two years ago, I would have thought they were nuts.
I am going to take a Paralegal course. I negotiated the settlement with h without any help from my $550/hr attorney and it reignited an interest I always had in Law. Not sure if I would pursue a career in the field but I think it might be interesting.
