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Pam! When you're the first poster on a new thread you can claim braggin rights, but as you didn't I'll claim the #2 spot.

Hi Sage!

So sorry my query prompted a trip down "bad memories lane"

I was doing pretty good with my first bomb anniv. until I read my journalling from that day. ..Kind of brought it all back some. ...I started to read further (I journalled LOTS back then) and just decided that it was making me feel worse, and went outside to work instead.

It's good to know how much we can handle. Now, that said, I think these upcoming "anniversaries" might be a good opportunity for you...sure they suck, but you know what? It really feels good to know that it IS a year later and things are SOOO much better!!

WOW!! Look at how far WE have come, Sage! Not to mention our Ms .

I'm not quite sure, but I know that I started the e-mail sending. It's not something CJ and I ever did with any regularity at all. In fact I'll bet I had maybe 10 e-mails TOTAL from him before this.

I have never actually ASKED CJ how he feels about OW (he offered that all by himself ). I don't have a good answer for why the reassurances NOW... I have mentioned in past conversation that it helps when he says I'm sorry, but he's known that for months.

Now that I think of it, he began to offer more reassurances after he read the bb printouts! Perhaps it reassured HIM to know that I wasn't on here bashing him or plotting my escape!

PERHAPS, Sage the one who can answer this the best is sitting in the livingroom doing homework. Maybe it was nothing I did so much as a place HE has come to?? Maybe I'll just send him an e-mail and ask on your behalf!

Shiny