Just found out wife filed

[RobD70]

I think what sucks this time is all the things she said to me back in December. Stuff like this on 12/18:

"I love you very much. I knew you were special from the night we went on our 2nd date. I would be honored and blessed to spend the rest of my life with you. I am very proud to call you my husband."

That was just 2 months ago after our 2nd reconcile and now she files. That was just a snip of a gushing email she sent and I'm sure she meant it at the time she wrote it. You don't know how tempting it is to send it back to her or even the OM.

It almost makes me pity her. From what I've seen from her in the past and other people once she get comfortable with the OM again these thoughts of me will re-surface. I wish I was in a place to meet someone else and get over her but that's not going to happen. I am trying to just love myself and find the tools to do that with.

Got another offer on the house but they are low-balling me. I might take it if I can break even just to get out of there.