I have a pathological fear of intimacy. Truth be told, I have a fear of rejection. This stems from a complete lack of self-esteem/self-respect.
This renders me incapable of any relationship, with any form of intimacy. My marriage is a dead shell. The same is true of most other relationships in my life. I make most of those around me miserable, to be totally honest.
This is probably due to some sort of trauma in early childhood. I am still trying discover what this is - what was the source of this pathology. I may never come to it.
Really, this is not a condition that would wish on my worst enemy.
