Early on I was totally paralyzed and caught in the pit of denial. I really wanted to FIX whatever was wrong and make it all better. It took me over 2 months to begin to creep out of the shell shocked feeling. I have done everything I can do to protect myself financially and legally. I finally broke the code that the only person I could control was me. This is going to sound funny, but I can not speak HER name and I refer to her as Respondent in correspondence. I made the mistake of speaking with her about 2 months ago. I sat with a phone in my hand and endured 40 minutes of verbal abuse. The kicker was when she told me she could never trust me again (WTF). Many folks would ask, "Why didn't you hang up?" Just label me a dummy. Anyway, NC has allowed me to GET OUT OF THE TORNADO and figure out that whatever happens happens. Not a fatalistic view just a pragmatic one.
BS (me) 57 WW (her) 51 M - 27+ years Sons - 34/21 daugh - 32/26 D-day - (A#1 Apr 98) (A#2 Oct 08) Status - minimal contact (me) living with OM (her) Divorce - Scheduled for Apr 09
