Textmessaging with the guy I met got totally out of hand last night, we exchanged at least 25...FAR too many. So this morning when I got up, I thought...enough, I have to tell this guy. So when I got out of the shower, I noticed a TM from him again, saying good morning and to have a nice day. I sent a short one back with the same. Later on he sent me one saying that maybe it had been too much last night...so I wrote back and told him that I am flattered but that I am not ready for anything more than friendship and that I'm sure he will find a wonderful person to share his life with, that he has given me great confidence and that he made me feel like a woman again, that I'm thankful for that, and never meant to mislead him or lead him on, that I have a lot of bagage and that I'm devoted to my kids now...and I said sorry.
He wrote back, saying there was no need for me to say sorry, that he totally understood and knows my situation and that he could tell, I wasn't ready yet. But that he still thinks I'm a great person and friendship is always an option. I told him thank you and that he truly was a nice guy.
Yikes, I'm too afraid to get hurt still, or even hurt someone else.
I feel relieved, because otherwise I may actually have led him on.
Yes, I considered a one night stand with this guy even, as I felt a physical attraction, and a woman does have needs...(;) ) but I know that's not for me... When the time is right, I'm sure I'll meet the right person !
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
