Passive Agressive MLC Husband

[PositivelyMommy]

Ranting and raving so I don't do it to H's face. Sorry folks.

I read/heard somewhere that a woman's love ties into respect for the man. She can't love a man she cannot respect. I am getting to that point right now. The longer he drags this on, the less I have respect for him. I don't begrudge him the fact that he feels that our M was not good, I do,however, blame him for starting and continuing with an A with the knowledge of the hurt that he would cause me, the kids and our families. I do blame him for putting my S in the front seat of his car, eventhough he should be sitting in the back. I blame him for chucking me over like garbage when I was not useful to him anymore. ( That is how he sees our R. That there is nothing in it for him and therefore he has no use for me and is justified in leaving it.) I blame him for renewing our vows in November and then starting an A in January. I blame him for giving me an STD. I blame him for not respecting my family. My dad loves H and he is broken-hearted by H's behavior. My parents have always spoiled him rotten to the point where I get jealous but now he acts as if they don't exist. I blame him for not paying attention to the kids from Day 1. He goes thru the motions but his eyes are blank. I blame him for not believing in our love. I blame him for disrespecting me with his lies again and again. I am not stupid, I don't believe his lies but he STILL lies to me. I act 'as if' to avoid confrontations but am angry that he continues to disrespect me. I am angry that he puts himself and OW ahead of me and the kids.

Thanks for listening folks, I needed to get that off my chest.