Oh trust me i know what she felt like like now and its not good. I cant eat, sleep, or function like a normal human being anymore I dont know how she did it for so long.
I know I broke her trust and faith in me but every time we talk about my A (and I am open and honest) its leads to us fighting again and i dont want that. I do believe she wants to know the truth about everything so she can rest her mind. I feel if we can get this behind us we can move foward and start our lives again and be happy.
As for not focusing on her liking someone else is the hardest thing I wll ever have to do. This whole thing is stuck in my mind and I cant shake it.
Sometimes I wish my W would have used some of the advice she got here and stuck with it. There were a few times she did the opposite of that and it made me very upset and confused. Thats why im here to get the best advice I can cause I have no one to turn to right now in my life. My W was my life my rock and I threw it away.
This summer my W told me a story that she told her one her friends who tried setting her up on a blind date. She said she loved me and was quite certain that if I had changed my mind in a year she would take me back. Now that year has passed and I feel Im becoming a better person. W biggest concern is she doesnt no how to live alone and I keep saying you dont Im right here give the chance to prove it. Ive asked a couple times for her to go see a counciler with me whom Ive seen a few times and this guy in one visit knew what caused our martial problems and I know if she went with me we could save our marriage and our family.
