A Cry for Help & Don't know where to go

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(((Mel)))) I really needed to log on and see that someone had said something to me. It touches me deeply that it was you.

I can honestly say that days like this the only reason I am staying alive is because of D. I have no idea what H is doing? Where he is? Is he thinking or even missing us at all? All the questions and no answers. Just to hear his voice would give me butterflies, I wouldn't even care if he was yelling at me.

I just have no idea about anything. I WILL wake up tomorrow and go to work, come home and make dinner, clean and play w/ D. Then do it all over again the next day. When i get a few minutes alone I think about him. D won't do anything without me. We are getting C but it doesn't help. I tried to call our old pastor tonight but no answer. Do you ever feel like you are being rejected by every living sole.