Good about AA. That is a great step. Now that you have an inkling of what she felt like, you can understand how deeply this hurt your R and her trust and faith that she had in you.
I know it is difficult but you can not focus on her liking someone else. You have been apart nearly a year. You both have changed a lot in that time. Think about what caused alot of this to begin with and make changes that would prevent that from happening again.
This is just some food for thought.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory