I am honored by your presence, O' Butt-Kickin One.
I've spent more time in other states on business lately that I haven't been able to secure the counselor thing. I'm not as comfortable with the stabbing at the yellow pages approach to picking a counselor. I am serious about finding one, however, and will do it soon.
I did have a check-in with the doc recently regarding my Paxil intake and he recommends continuing. Seems to be smoothing out the ups and downs. It would be nice if it jsut cut out most of the lows and left the highs but I'll settle with feeling less anxiety. Doc did say that there were plenty of things that he could help my wife to regain her sex drive...the catch is that she has to seek the help (always the sticky catch!) Oh well. Maybe this is penitance for my next reincarnation.
I think its been a couple weeks since my wife last suggested that another woman would be more satisfying for me and that it would be ok with her if I had someone to help me with my "needs". I know she is sincere when she says this (she never says it in anger) and truly believes that she would be fine with it BUT I know her better than she knows herself and I know that it would screw up our relationship.
She really is an pseudo open mind wannabe. I'm not ready to risk our family to start such alternative therapies. I still think it's bizarre that she would rather have me find sex somewhere else than with her. I know that she would prefer that I would only want sex with her every 3-6 months or something. If we agreed to strictly only have sex that infrequently I know she would be very happy and enjoy it just fine. OUCH! I just can't handle that (although I guess I only have the choice of taking whatever she is willing to hand out--no choice really)
Man, I really could use a good lovemaking session! I'm getting really hungry!:p
