Back in a bad place (from a former DB regular)

[newnamenewlife]

No, we are not D. We saw a mediator for a while, but I needed a break because I got too emotional. We do need to go back and continue the negotiations-just haven't gotten around to it.

And, Jeff, I would love to have the love affair with myself of which you speak--but that is easier said than done! I did a whole lot of that and GAL during the horrible months pre-separation. I've just hit a dead end. I'm sick of myself. I feel horribly lonely--that's the truth.

It's particularly bad this week because my Ds are off with H for the week, skiing, while I am here alone. Lots of my friends are also away. I've made plans with everyone who is around, but I am just miserable and torturing myself with thoughts of H and OW (although she is not with them; my kids have not met her and actively don't want to).