Hey, just thought of a funny....sort of. We all have been so worried about you making out by yourself and as I recall, it was the H that didn't know how to get along by himself. Or was that the babysitting thing? Anyway, I bet truth be told, he will be lost without you in more ways than one, but the rascal deserves to be. Guess you can tell I'm still ticked at him, huh?

I don't know what kind of test you had to have done, but I have had to watch my daughter take horrible ones and yes, you begin to think nobody in the hospital knows what they are doing some days. No offense to anyone in our DB board community. But it is hard to take those things or to watch a loved one go through painful ones. My daughter has suffered so much pain in her life and she is so tiny, it just kills my soul to see her have to endure what she does. I know your family feels the same about you, but you know what babygirl? I fail to tell my daughter what I am telling you about my feeling toward her, so your family probably does the same thing and forget to tell you their feelings. I'm sure there are times you feel that nobody understands (and probably don't) or nobody cares (but they do). We family members, and even friends, forget--when it happens so often--to express our constant concern toward our loved ones. I don't have what you do, but I know the frustation of feeling like you are all alone and nobody realizes what it is like. None of us do until we have worn the shoes, right? BTW, it was very unselfish of you to have your D to spend the night with friends since there was no TV. You probably could have had her wait on you if nothing else......but like you said....no TV may mean a killing (lol). Been there a few times!

I know that Lupus and Fibromyalgia are sort of in the same family, but what I have is nothing compared to what you have, however, I'm sure all the emotional stress is agravating the physical part right now. I hope all these posts are letting you know how much we are thinking about you and wishing we could do something for you.

Hope you can get some relief tonight and get some much needed rest.

Love,
Sandi


It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!