I know you do. You know I think of her as a sister. She is hurting and right now you aren't helping your cause. Please give her some space. Pushing the issue is only going to push her further away.
I give you kuddos for coming here, I really do. But I also know that you need to focus on yourself. I can't tell you that enough. She has been trying to do that. I think she has done a pretty good job.
While you put the focus on yourself you need to look at some of your not so great moments with her. Those actions in the past I believe are what are going to keep you from her if you can't correct those behaviors. She can tell you herself how concearned I was for her safety.
roll up your sleeves, if you are in for the long haul.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory