I'm glad to hear you are interested in teaching again. We need good teachers and I myself am working hard to be an even better teacher than before after a year of not giving my all to my profession. Getting a divorce sucks.
You mentioned your sadness, and I think this is what I feel too:
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I still get pain in my chest sometimes - but it's not out of the loss of my M anymore...it's just the pain of rebuilding...and whenever I feel it I know there's something I have to accept, reflect on, process, perhaps mourn, and through that, I heal
I'm becoming more and more convinced my pain and sadness isn't caused by losing a woman who is destructive to herself and to me, but to losing my family. To losing my dream. To losing time w/my darling little baby girl.
That is the unbearable loss I'm feeling. Thank you for helping me pin-point it.
As for your W's father, it is sad what parents can do to their children. All we can do is learn and try to avoid their mistakes and make sure our children are always loved unconditionally whenever we have them.
Making ourselves better will help us to love them better.
