I'm sorry you are hurting. I'm sorry you are having a hard day.
Many of us have been where you are right now, and all of us would tell you the same thing..it DOES get better. Read this again...IT DOES GET BETTER!
Don't get down thinking that you "need" him to be whole or that you "can't live without him". You can live without him, and you will be happy again.
My advice is to start working on your detachment. Worry about you. Worry about your kids. GAL, and GAL for YOU not for HIM. If you are "getting a life" in the hopes that he might notice, you aren't doing it right. You do it for YOU, and IF he notices, it is a benefit.
Good luck, you can do it.
H: 38 W: 36 S: 8 S: 5 M: 16 Bomb: 8/25/08 OM: 9/21/08 EA (Possible PA) with co-worker since 5/08 (at least...) Sep: 9/21/08 D Filed 9/23/08 My Situation