I am really sorry to hear this turn of events. I know you are hurting now. I don't know what is best to do, let it all out or try to get out of the house and stay busy. You are a wonderful person and you can and will get through this.
Hugs dear friend.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory