Never say Never; it's worth the fight!

[Treese]

YR....I guess H is withdrawing again....havent' heard anything from H in days...saw him on Sunday at s11's game but we didn't speak...really I haven't heard his voice for a while...just a text about a week ago...is this the way it's gonna be...

I was very lonely the other night and cried for a few hours....so much to share and no one to share it with....my friends all have husbands or fiance's or BF's....once that loneliness sets in I have to cry....it builds up and boom....

He must really be having a great time in his new relationship...he sees her children more than his own...and he's okay with it...I'm just venting here...I know there's nothing I can do nor do I want him right now....he is so not the person I fell in love with or married...

It seems though on those lonely days that all the memories of the past come racing back...and it's just sad...

I received a dozen roses on Valentine's Day from a male friend who wants to go out with me...I was so surprised and it truly made my day....he said he wanted to make me smile cause I have a beautiful smile...wow....haven't heard that in forever...I was hoping H would stop by and come in and see the flowers and wonder who they were from, but he didn't...they are beautiful..

so, I'm just hanging...taking care of what needs done and doing it on my own...so proud of ME!!