I would give $500 to walk 1 mile with W holding my hand.
I wouldn't complain if I were you!
As far as moving forward: 1. Set small achievable goals - not "H will love me and take care of me and be there for me, etc". Sounds like you're a little giddy because of the friendship, etc!
The friendship is core - get that grounded into something unmovable before you start trying to charge into love and kisses.
