You changed your name. And I recall you were over in "Separated".
A word to the wise, it's easier for folks to keep up with you and track the conversations with you if you have just one thread in one forum at a time. A lot of folks start out over in "Newbies" ("Newcomers") and then move to one of these other forums as their situation progresses down one path or another.
Starting a thread here in "Infidelity" -- does that mean you suspect your W is being unfaithful? Because I don't gather that from your initial posts, either of them.
If not, may I suggest you restart your thread over in Newcomers? There is a lot of activity over there and you might get more responses (then again, there are so many "hungry mouths" there that some get overlooked.)
As I stated before, you really need to place your focus on fixing yourself and being the best father you can be. If your W comes back to you, that's great, but if not then you will at least know that you have done something positive for yourself.