H has officially filed. Please help me!!!!!

[MomInPain]

Forrest,

I love you. You truly make me think.

My posts do come off very emotional, and it is a direct reflection of the type of person I am.

Very opposite of my H. lol We are opposites in almost every way.

You are very right, I wouldn't know what to do if he came back today. I'd be sending sos's over and over to my family here. I wouldn't have a clue where to start and would fear doing something wrong at every turn. And if I'm really being honest with myself, I wouldn't want him that way.

Of course the LBS wants the WS to come and beg for forgiveness, and spend each day for the rest of their lives showing them how sorry they are for what they did. Now back to reality.

It is quite possible that while I'm doing my thing and working on my issues, I will end up not wanting anything to do with his sorry butt. Maybe that is what I fear?

I think deep down, I know what I need to do.

I just have to do it and not fear it. Easier said than done.

Probably going to be the biggest test these next 2 weeks. Seeing if I can really let go and move us out. This could be the nail in the coffin of our marriage. But it is the only way I can feel like I am taking care of us and doing what's best for us in the situation the H has put us in. H will be financially ruined with this move. Unfortunately he knows and I have told him he must live with the consequences of his actions.

PMA, GAL, Move forward with love, that's all I can do.