yes your d does deserve better than this. Tell her that, and change your approach so she knows that SHE is, and will always be, your priority. Make HER happiness your obvious priority. But tell her, don't assume she knows.
And forgive yourself. You are more aware than many people ever become and you realize in the midst of your pain, that even though your w brought the divorce on, you can still screw things up. So, now you know. And you'll do better from now on. That's all you can do. Grow, learn, improve, be the best man you can be.
(( j ))
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016