I know every person is different as is every sitch. I'm going to be honest and I'm sure there are some here that will disagree. I really don't know what it is lately, but everything inside me right now says to take a stand and just not take anymore of this. None, zip, nada.
Do I feel as though I should have done this from the start? No absolutely not, but how far do you let this go. I have shown love, understanding, patience and everything else for a long long time, to the point where it is expected of me and just taken for granted.
I'm not angry, I'm just amazed at the BS that has went on for so long. It shows no sign of stopping either. I'll probably get blasted for saying this, but for some reason, I keep feeling this way.
I came back because there was more that I wanted to say to you earlier but I needed to get home.
Trapt, you are riding the wave right now. Of having dealt with some of your own issues and having come to terms with some of your own failures within the marriage.
That's a damned liberating place to be, I know.
But you are fooling yourself if you think that means you're ready to move on.
You haven't done ALL of the work yet.
There is another leg of this journey.
It's the part where you take all that you have learned and all of your personal growth and you really square off in the fight of your life.
When you've done that - at least once - and it culminates however it will - then you can say you're done and truly be.
But not until then.
Now it is true that you can try to leave before the bell rings. That's called free will.
You can even go get yourself a new woman.
It'll be great.
For about a minute.
Then you will realize that even sitting right beside her, you are still alone.
Then you will realize why.
By then there'll be one more victim of your circumstance.
