Thanks, Pup.

I agree that there needs to be a certain distance/darkness in DB, especially to make my H miss me. And I figure he shouldn't have full access to me if he choses to not be with me. But I do try to keep a friendship with him when we do talk. We have good talks and I want to have him to remember that about me.

Yea, there is definitely a thin line between saving oneself and saving ones marriage. When times are rough there is a lot that one does endure. But I guess each of us know to how how much we are capable of bearing.