Aud and Matilda, I'm getting a flurry of emails from her, so I'm trying to post more often rather than have one long post.
Her recent emails says that she's sad about the deterioration of the M, and the distance we have. She doesn't validate any of my emails, saying that I continue to blame circumstances for my behavior.
She says that she has tolerated me for too long, possibly due to emotional abuse as a child, and that she cannot tolerate any more abuse from me. She said what is going to change is her tolerance of any more abuse from me. She is going to move forward in a positive way.
She also complains about not having enough space, and that I'm around the house too much.
I don't understand her perspective.
It sounds like the current M is dying, and turning a corner.
I'll have to let this happen.
CL
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."
