Just catching up on your thread after finding my new hangout on FB. Sounds like you're deep into a new chapter of pain, strength and new beginnings. I'm also in that chapter along side of you. I think you're doing great, standing for what you want and need in your M. I read a quote the other day that you remind me of:
>> In order to be walked on, you have to be lying down<<
You are standing up for yourself and what you believe in and you should be proud of you strength.