H has officially filed. Please help me!!!!!

[MomInPain]

It's so hard to feel good about any of this.

I feel like I make mistakes in all of this left and right.

Had I not pushed him to tell me what was going on, maybe
he wouldn't have felt the need to file so quick.

Had I not professed my love to him and tell him how much he
means to me and how important it was for us to remain a family,
maybe he wouldn't have wanted out so badly.

So, is making him take our home back the right thing? Maybe.

Part of me hopes that by being here, he remembers everything we
shared, hoped, and dreamed of.

Part of me hopes that by having the kids more than every other week, he will realize that whatever freedom he seems to be seeking, nothing will be as good as it was when we were a family.

Part of me hopes that if he has to live in our marital home he really thinks twice about the decision he is making to end us and everything we had planned.

Back to reality. And apt hunting.