Thanks for the humor. I think the impending D has been more poisonous than the 2 minutes of vomiting, but it did cross my mind. I think it was just a 24 hour flu bug that I caught.
I hear you on your "friends" analysis. I think you're right on that she wants a peaceful exit. When we talked on it that night, she mentioned that she thought it would be better co-parenting if we were friends. She also said that she was the type of person that doesn't want to be disliked by anyone. It won't get ugly, but she is breaking my (and probably my kids') heart. She's not afraid of my physical strength, but of being disliked. I would never touch her in a non-loving way.
I still think of my 24 hour bug after our argument as coincidental, but also as a sign (from above?). I think of the quote from Coach:
>>This crisis in my life is not what I want but it's what I have been dealt. It will be the defining moment of the middle of my life. So I have to play it the way a great man would. Be true to myself, love my kids, honor my marriage, continue to love my wife, take responsibiliy for me, be a warrior and honor the Creator. <<
I need to honor my marriage and continue to love my wife. It's tough to do since she's not coming back, but I need to find some forgiveness and show her love and not let hate creep into any part of my life.
