IMO you have to just put yourself back out there..I'll be honest that I'm scared pretty much chittless..but the alternatives are not very appealing to me..I'd rather not lock myself in my house, I'd rather not be a pissed off human being...I'd rather not be a SOB..I've made a choice and am attempting to live the way I should live...positive..happy..it's all about choices..right?? we choose to love, we choose to let ourselves feel again...we choose/make our version of happy without letting someone else do that for us..
as far as Kim goes..well...that is what it is...she's working with me..are we friends?..no..are we civil?...right now yes...do I play into her drama anymore?..no...am I ready to jerk a knot in her ass if she attempts to piss on my carpet?? Yes it's funny..I met Kim yesterday to drop Caleigh off...I looked at Kim..I mean I really looked at her..and saw NO BEAUTY...I saw UGLY..very unattractive..I can no longer seem to find any reason why we ever got together with the exception of Caleigh..
I'm assuming that the lack of anything that resembles "feeling's" with Kim has long since died and I now feel what she says she felt towards me..what all WAS's say..maybe I'm a true WAS now?? who knows..
it's good to be able to sit back...examine all this..and not spin..
it's either true detachment or I'm brain dead..
Mike, I'll give you my password etc and you can just copy and paste into my thread....I've not mentioned it, but the looking deep thing !!! I did that the weekend and same outcome as you !!!
