Matilda, I've taken down the Mars and Venus book from my shelf and will give it a try, as it's relevant to my situation.
I wrote to my W in a morning email about the inherent communication struggles of men and woman, to try to frame our conflict as normal. She wants some space for now, and wants to go to a dance venue on Wednesday, to get a break from me. I wrote her that I'll respect her space, and to let me know when she's ready to connect.
I read a poem this morning about how beauty continues to exist in the world despite the weight of our worries and preoccupations. The poet wrote a soliloquy about observing birds flying over water. My sheep puppy dog provides the same experience.
I have an eerie mixture of calmness and restlessness this morning. I think I'm growing from this drama, and my skills are increasing. I feel confident about my ability to face this situation. Fear is diminishing.
It's like the scene in the Wizard of Oz where they no longer are afraid of the man behind the curtain. I'm becoming less afraid of my W behind her defensive space suit. I'm also contemplating taking my space suit off.
Space suit is a simile from author Tara Brach, for defensive patterns that we think will protect us from harm and unpleasantness.
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CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."
