My first step out of Newcomers

[Can it work]

Good Morning All

Well, I'm not feeling too great this morning. I seem to have caught a bit of a cold and didn't sleep well last night because of it. Hopefully it won't come to much.

Since I couldn't sleep, I did a lot of thinking through the night. I thought about my life, the universe and everything. The one thing that stuck in my mind was the way I was on Saturday night. I really enjoyed myself yet still knew that I loved my W above all else. What struck me when I was thinking last night was that I was acting as I was when my W and I first got together. I was out, enjoying life and having fun in the company of others. That's the guy my W married. Since Wee Man was born though, I've not been that guy. I've taken my responsibilities very serious and have therefore changed quite a lot. I know that life is supposed to change when you have children but more now than ever I see how much of a different person I became. Rather than going out with my friends on occasion, I used my W as my only social outlook. I now truly see how much pressure that must have put on her. It may have been a huge contributing factor to me being on this site. The problem I have now is that I need my W to see me as that person again. More to the point though, I need to be that person again. Yes I know I have more responsibility now as a father but I also have a responsibility to myself as a person to enjoy my life. There's no reason in the world that I can't manage both.

I've got my annual staff appraisal this afternoon. It's not pleasing me! Hopefully won't be too bad though. I'll just have to wait and see. And then from tonight I have Wee Man staying with me for the next couple of nights. I'm really looking forward to that. Add that to the fact that my new TV is being delivered today and I can admit that today is shaping up to be not too bad. If my appraisal goes well, it may even turn in to a really good day! Well, as long as I start feeling a bit better with this cold.

Kev