but: To be honest, I'm so afraid of this "going dark" idea. Sure, she called me noticing that something was different but deep inside I'm terrified of the final outcome. Here is why; If W decided to move out and to have an A because of her feelings of "being neglected, lonely, living under one roof but in the two different worlds" how going dark will fix that?
Lets not forget that when I stay dark, OM works overtime to get her on his side.
So far I stay on course sticking to the game plan but with each day I feel worse.
Another problem: I have to contact her anyways because of taxes (time to file and she has her W2) we'll have to file jointly because of the mortgage.
Speaking of which: today was the first time when I was late with the mort. payment. As said before I decided not to pay for the house anymore. I barely stopped myself from sending a bitter text message about how I feel about that.
