thanks k - I don't know where things will end up with my XW and I. I don't know if it will be any easier. I think we both want to forget the failure, but there still seems to be a lot of energy when we're around each other, hence the tears on her part and my need to stay away from her. But I don't know.
I just don't want to end up being bitter. My mom is still bitter over her D even though she's been happily married for 20+ years since and I hate having to listen to her talk about the D. I don't want to end up like that. But I also don't want to get sucked back into that space of feeling like she's reaching out to me because she regrets what she's done. It'll just continue to be a balancing act I guess.
